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[14 Jun 2009|12:17pm] [ mood | anxious ] Well, todays the day of the live. Rehersal is at 4 today but i still have no word of when I'm meeting Aki all i know is that we're performing at midnight. anyways got myself dressed already. actually ended up with a more juvenille look. black/blue striped tights, a layered black skirt and a t-shirt with the moon and stars ( glows in the dark too) but yeah...skipped out on wearing my sequin mini skirt and bondage top, seemed too gothic for the event XD; but yeah.. Silver called me this morning to tell me she arrived safely in HK. It was sort of sweet and endearing even if the conversation was for less than a minute ( since she was using the hotel phone)  It made me happy and made me miss her even more than I already do. * sigh* it's just for a week and a half... Still no word from my sister. So i don't know if she got to Maine alright. I've called her twice and only gotten her answering machine and I...really dont want to call my brother-in-law cause..its awkward i'll try her again tonight. maybe shes still getting settled in. Either way I'm a little worried... Mom hasn't called me either =_= hmm... well as long as Silver is alright i guess. I'll keep trying to reach my family and practice for the live in the meantime 1 Souls :: Reap

Second Concert Tomorrow [13 Jun 2009|06:18pm] [ mood | lonesome ] Well tomorrow is my second live at Silver Factory Studios in downtown for Kissing Cousins Album release party. Whoot~! Our costumes are space themed so you can just imagine all the sorts of crazy stuff I'm going to end up wearing tomorrow. Unfotunately the colors they chose are like the colors i rarely ever wear, well besides Black, but i really dont want to wear my Gothic stuff. Maybe i'll try on some makeup and stuff tonight. Even though we perform tomorrow at midnight I want to look my absolute best. Still tomorrow sort of terrifies me. I mean sure I have shaker and Kazoo parts this time and the band has not finally started warming up to me to the point of letting me do some vocal, but...I'm just afraid of fucking up my vocal part. I sing the finale song, but during rehersals my voice isnt projecting far enough so I'm like, "FUCK." Technically I was supposed to work on that today with Aki since she was spending the night, buut well we woke up at 10 and then talked  and messed around for 3 hrs before we actually crawled out of bed. So much for working on our album and rehearsing privately. ( not that I mind messing around, I had a ton of fun :3) Either way, I'm a little out of it today I have a ton of stuff going on with my life right now. Moms in mexico, Sis is in Maine, and Silver my best friend is in Hong Kong so, besides hanging out with Aki I feel pretty much alone. Not to mention I'm overwhelmed with the finals. I have like 3 performances and major rehearsals along with one big acedemic final on the day of my Mime Show. *siigh* well last night was at least fun :3 I dragged Aki along with me to meet Silver and the group to watch Up.  and my god I cried like 4 times during the movie. Maybe it was because Silver was leaving for HK today and I wanted so badly to go with her . Or I don;t know maybe I'm just sad that this is the second group of friends that have left to Asia together and haven't taken me, well not like I could have gone anyways, but still...well I do hope one day I'll have my chance for going on an adventure with a group of friends or a friend with me.., but yeah the movie was good a little abrupt, but I enjoyed it. well better go to sleep early, some reason i still feel exausted. Reap

A little recap [20 May 2009|12:04pm] Thought it was time to have a little recap on my life and where its headed~ Well my first live with indie band Cobra Lilies went , very well ( especially for only having one rehearsal before the show) true, i got bruised badly for falling to my knees for In the Diamond Mine and the jumping and high kicking in the wooden clogs for the finale totally bruised my ankles I'm really looking forward to performing with them again. Word on the street is that our next live is in July so XD; I have time to really get the rehersals down. As for working with Aki Lily, I'm working with her coming up with melodies for the Wonderland Project for now though I really need to get my hands on a drumset, especially if she wants me to do precussion. Other than my recent band life, Life has been changing for me in all sorts of directions. In the next couple of months , mom is going to move out with her boyfriend and my sister is going to Maine for 10 weeks so essentially I'll have a lot more time alone. This year i feel that I have grown apart from many old friends, whether its from distance, lack of communication or possibly old grudges I've lost a lot of important people in my life and although I have gained one or two new ones it's still hard starting anew and some people are really irreplaceable. I've also tasted the nice cold stab of jealously more this year though I am getting better at dismissing it, some things arent worth fighting over. I have mixed feelings about this summer coming up... my mom and sis are both leaving for a while and others of my closest friends are travelling so  guess I'll be spending the summer, making music and making money ( unfortunately not by making music) I'm going to be teaching Middle schoolers ( god help me XD; ) ~! mom hooked me up with a sweet job teaching art classes  ( mime, Manga drawing, and a mixed media class) whooo  ~! So guess thats it for now, I'm hoping I'll be able to  pull myself through this upcoming summer and I hope for the best.  Reap

First Live tomorrow [17 May 2009|06:58pm] Yes indeed you heard it right! My first live with the Cobra Lilies is tomorrow in some little restaurant named Juanitas in Eagle Rock. Think the show begins at 11 or 10 , but we'll see.... I'm a little nervous, since technically this was my first real rehersal, but people are saying they loved my solo dance piece and they've included me in   2 other dance numbers which I pretty much got down last time. Only critique I got was to not be so shy around my fellow bandmates since for  "Lets go into the Woods and Fall in Love" Theres a bit of a performance piece where we start this cat fight and i guess i was being gentle XD;;, i'll probbably snap into gear tomorrow night though. I'm going to be practicing tonight! Not to mention working on the finale dance ( the clogs dig into my ankle x_o need more socks) Oh yes! and I have decided on Stage names! I'm going to have 2 since technically I am in 2 bands so For the Cobra Lilies I am now- Ever Lily aand for Aki Lily's solo project ...after much thinking it hit me that I already do have a stage name so "Take" it is XD though..getting a second opinion on it before I make it official. for Aki Lily I'm going to help Aki finish up her Wicked Circus album, although we're already working on another Alice in Wonderland themed..musical album..something ( that we're also planning on making a movie for) Yaae I get the Queen of Hearts role mostly since Aki says I  " Look really good in crowns"  XD;; I'm glad actually since  I can really go all out  with my outfit XD ...XD; well thats going to be still in development i'm going to write a few lines of Lyrics for Aki to choose from  aand go back to clog  dance routine . wish my luck tomorrow and hope those clogs dont completely kill me :3 i'll put up address later :D Reap

To the Tidepools [02 May 2009|11:57pm] [ mood | contemplative ] Well tomorrows the big day. The group picnic with my best friend and friends of hers :3 I'm actually really excited, we've never done a big group picnic or any picnic , i'm hoping if we do good then Sil will be encouraged to keep doing group events like this. I'm in charge of bringing towels and possibly candy since everything else is pretty much brought XD; I'm really happy since it's always been a dream of mine to go on a picnic like thing with my best friend. As excited as I am I'm a little nervous though. Maybe I've just had too many bad large group experiences, buut I can't help but feel uneasy  , a feeling to keep my guard up  or something. Bah thats always me jinxing myself. ^^; Best smile and just hope for the best, come what may I will handle it as best and as calmly as I can. ah well~ A lot of other things are on my mind, but some thoughts are best kept quiet since it would cause more harm than good to bring them up so I'll just stop there. well have to wake up early for shopping and then another shower to look my best, I have to look my absolute best  tomorrow <3 Reap

A small break and stage names [01 May 2009|07:15pm] [ mood | tired ] Well the week is out finally, and luckily no rehearsal this weekend whoot, that saves me some time to practice hard on that dance piece I have to do for the Cobra Lilies. Though this weekend I am going off to see Em at this beach sometime on sunday, that'll be fun .Still trying to figure out what I should wear. Always feel conflicted with wanting to doll myself up or dess, semi-casual, since...I can at least dress and pretend i'm not short a few marbles XD; eh it'll probbably come down to either dressing Decora, dressing steampunk , ooor ...something inbetween =_=; Anyways this trip is one of the last things on my mind. Right now I'm thinking about my stage names since  I am in both Cobra Lilies and Aki Lily's bands ( now as a drummer and mime-dance performer) I've decided for two names, since I just ..can't tag "Lily "after any name I want. For the Cobra Lilies I'm probbably going to stick with Eve Lily or Ever Lily, think Ever sounds nicer >_>; For Aki Lily's band ...I'm looking at Aeroni ...or some re spelling of Eroni since as much as I do love that name it is the name of my very special original character and the name closest to my heart that...I just don't have the heart to use as it is ...as awesome as it would be to come out as Eroni Reapyr XD;; I have to work on that. if all else fails I might just do something with the name "Devon" ...or Helenna Cable, or something...god..why did i use up all my good names for original rpg characters >_<; Then agan i guess the hardest person to name is myself. but yeah... blah... I have a lot on my plate to think about. Reap

The Wakeup Call: "Holy crap I'm in a band" o-o [27 Apr 2009|02:14pm] [ mood | hungry ] Well yesterday was the day I officially joined the Cobra Lilies. I was so nervous when I woke up and as I got dressed, I actually didn't know what to expect. So when I got there i was blown away x_x; They have 8 members (now that me and some new guitarist joined) from what I saw we have like 3 guitarists ( one electric, two acoustic or something), about 4 singers ( who alternate and play the accordion, the saw, saxaphone, pots and pans, ect) aaand me who is their mime dancer ._.; I think this was the one time in my life where I really really wished mom had pushed me to be intrested in music at an early age, rather than discovering it in High School, maybe I could contribute more to the band than just dance. I could tell Jade felt bad about having me sit there for the 4 hours of rehearsal and asked Ely ( the band leader) if she could abandon singing one song to do an act with me XD; ( unfortunately she's one of the best singers so that caused an uproar XD; even i said no since that song needed her)  buut I'm taking ( and i think their taking) me as a guest star. Which is only fair considering their already getting up there, from what I've heard their music is starting to get played here and they just finished recording an album so yeah they prob think I'm just riding on their coat tails since i'm just a mere performer. Luckily, Jade has her Solo project Aki Lily and asked me to join her band as their official dancer and since they're just starting out I think I'll have more luck actually singing and contributing more to the band, but either way the next live is on May 10th and rehersals are every Sunday so x_x; I better hustle. At the end of the day I'll be performing a "mime dance" for the song Diamond Mine aand they asked me if i was willing to clog dance for the finale song Shoes Off , I think I learned the dance by watching them, but i'll need a  run through it with them next rehersal. They introduced me as Alex, but said if i wanted to choose a stage/performers name it has to be with an A or an E. I found it funny because that's already been on my mind for a while but Originally I wanted it to be like Devon something ( buut besides Devon being one of my OC char names, now i definately cant choose that) I'm leaning towards "Alice" Alice Lily does roll off the touge nicely, buut it seems so cliche  >_>  as much as i love Alice in wonderland...part of my wants to say "noooo." Bah and I have to figure all this out by thursday the earliest...well at least I wont be cooped up in the house all weekends. Still, this still feels like a dream. Since High School I wished that one day I'd be with a band XD; Now that I'm in two it seems...unreal. XD; 4 Souls :: Reap

[23 Apr 2009|10:44am] Alright so getting letters ready to mail out XD amazing that I'm still doing some form of mail service from starting back when I was 17 XD; even if now  I only mail one or two people I still enjoy  these just the same. ^^ need to go ot and buy a smaller padded envelope though...damn Bah Spring break is almost over ;_; I've only really had a break this monday when I invited Jade to spend the night at my place. Sometime this week i'm waiting for an invitation to go to dinner with her and her family, since they are part of the CobraLilies  aand I am going to be working with their band so huzzah ~! Unfortuantely i hurt my other ankle yesterday night so now both my ankles ache x_x; So much for practicing Mime during my break--although i did get new ideas for skits, though now i have to begin writing for the show in June so hopefully that will go well x_x; I went to downtown to try to get the bootleg chrono cross soundtrack, still $30 >_> looks like i'll have to dig for some of the od burnt CDs for it and see whats useable since my sister really says i shouldnt use music with lyrics for pantomime. I kind of belive her since even if i use any of my Japanese CDs its still strange and ..i really dont need another crazy reputation, i already have an odd one with the fact that me and my mime bff is always hanging off me so >_>;; so we'll see how everything goes, man i really want to finally meet to cobralilies and be introduced officially into the band--they asked me if i could sing too so thats a big hint they may want more for a more permanent thing-luckily i think one member is leaving anyways so * shimmies in* >3 God I can't wait to start. >3 2 Souls :: Reap

... [18 Apr 2009|11:37pm] [ mood | dissconeccted ] ( A reflection of myself on these lonely nights ) Reap

Wow I havent been here in YEARS! O_O; * -updates- [18 Apr 2009|01:17am] [ mood | restless ] Wow O_O didn't expect to come back to LJ and yet here I am on another sleepless night o-o. Doubt anyone reads this journal anymore so for maybe the lucky few who do you'll get the update on my life and my going ons. :3 Well, I changed my majors a while ago from film to performing arts. I'm actually really talented in theater though I'm specializing in Pantomime and am trying to develop my own style of storytelling that includes both mime and modern dance. Recently I got an invitation to perform for an indies all girl band. A friend of mine is the bassist and when she heard what I can do with pantomime she talked to the band and as of now I'm going to perform for one of their songs as a pantomime story to one of their songs. Course I still haven't gotten the lyrics but i am going to their show this Saturday ( hopefully)to see the debut of Blue Diamond (which is what i have to do) Along with meet the rest of the band members and see exactly what style i'm dealing with since their music is very much acoustic/folk and ballady which isnt bad and actually makes my job easier soo yeah. but yeah the bassist, Aki ( stage name) is also an amazing song writer and a f*cking good vocalist is starting up a solo project which is more rock and I know that once she starts it up she's been asking me to get on it and learn drums so that i can be her drummer ^^, luckily her mom is the drummer of the band i'm performing for so lucky me i may actually get training this time >3 perhaps now i can at least say that i did follow my dream to be a star even if it may be short lived. I want to at least know I gave it my all so ^^ I'll try not to disappoint. in the relationships department... I've been single for the past 4 months, which has been both refreshing and hard. Though I do miss the feeling of being cared for as I was, I am not kept lonely, least not while I'm in school. I've actually become quite popular recently. Finally a few days of not having to wear sweats and actually going to class in VK clothes has gotten me love from old friends and new. Actually got invitations to play dress up and have a tea party with a few girls during this spring break, so I'm kept pretty busy nowadays though usually I just stay inside. ( Kind of wish i could get a date with a cute girl though * pout* most of them just see me as a friend and one chick is just insane and I dont know what to think XD; but not going to go into that ) I enjoy my solitude though sometimes it does get very lonely... true there is that guy that has been pestering me for a date and i did go with him but ..no chemistry and he never bothers calling so...I'll wait for an opportunity to find someone but I'm not actively looking. though every now and then i do check and see how my old significant other is doing. ^^ I'm glad she is with someone and I hope she is happy. Other than that I'm still basically the same..well probably a little crazier on the inside and am finally enjoying my spring break hoping to update my Decora wardrobe and yaay I'll be 21 in 3 1/2 months ...Can't wait to hit the bars with my friends ( or my sis) ..seriously =_=;..XD okaay time for sleep XD naai naai~ Reap

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